Happy freaking birthday

today I turn 40 years old. Perhaps it's the events of the past year, perhaps it's the number 40, but I just want to get this birthday behind me.
40.
Wow.
I remember when I turned 20 (really doesn't seem that long ago) I was surprised. I really thought there was gong to be some change. Some moment when I would realize,"Now I'm an adult".
Only there wasn't.
20 years later I sit here and there's part of me that is still waiting for that moment. Part of me still waiting for people to point and say, "Hey that's just some guy pretending to be an adult."
Oh well.
There are many joys to being young of mind and heart. (if not of body)
When I was a boy everybirthday seemed to have snow. It was a tradition. As I got older snow seemed to fall less and less on my birthday. It was depressing. I honestly can't remember the last time there was snow on my birthday now.
As I type this I can look out my window and see as fresh covering of snow.
Perhaps that's a good sign for what's to come.